Poem: For Women Who Are ‘Difficult’ To Love by Warsan Shire

You are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head
and you tried to change didn’t you?

closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love

Currently Reading : The Tastemaker by Edward White

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Back in August I wrote an "infatuation" post about my love for Carl van Vechten. I’ve been trying to get more information about him ever since but it’s hard. However I did hear some negative sounds from some sources about his so called “love” for the African American community. By now I’m quite used to being disappointed by my “heroes” so it did not surprise me that much. I am very interested in everything he did or did not do for American culture and I do want to understand what exactly happend between Carl and members of the Harlem Renaissance.
I decided to buy a book about him. The writer of the book claims to be critical about Carl so I hope I got myself a semi objective view on the situation. 

Let’s see how this turns out, I hope to not be too disappointed tho.
His pictures are amazing and it always seem to me that he did help a lot of artists he worked with.I’ll keep you posted but you can buy the book here.